What the hell does that mean? That I have voluntarily isolated myself maybe not consciously. I am just sick of myself, I just can't get it right. I don't keep track of my money and I overspend and I overdraft my accounts. This make Mary very mad at me and she thinks I'm lying to her. I am not doing this on purpose I just lose track and don't face up to it. I am losing everything I ever thought I wanted and I feel so old and useless. Mary says I'm always negative and she doesn't want to here it or be around it. So we have been separated for quite a while, but I had hoped we were trying to get back together. Well the other day she looked at my accounts online and I had overdrafted a lot and she got really mad and told me that was it, it's over between us. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life, made the wrong choices, took the wrong actions or just hid from reality and hope it would all go away or get better. It never did and now at my age where I should be starting to relax, it ain't gonna happen. So what do I do? I don't know. My day to day work and life are boring and meaningless. I struggle to keep what? I got nothing. Is that about enough negative for one rant, sorry. See Ya Dave
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