I am so very tired of being negative and struggling against the world. I am so ready to just give up and take the punches. My struggles with finances, work life, purpose and my personal relationships have been ongoing for as long as I can remember. My closest relationship my dear wife Mary says she's not sure if she still loves me. This is like the most hurtful thing that has ever been said to me. I get so many mixed messages from her and do not know how to react or respond. I'm ready to just walk off into the woods and just disappear. How do I survive this and have some purpose in my life? So it seems I just have nothing but negative going on in my life and I can't get out of it. I feel like I need to do everything different even totally opposite from the ways I have done in the past. I have always worked and paid my bills, I have always been helpful and loyal to people, I've given up what I've wanted to do to go along with others and look where I have ended up! What a big waste of time and energy. Is my past worth saving? That just doesn't make any sense, the past is gone why hold on to it. Even my dreams or the way I thought things were suppose to be, just aren't anymore. I keep holding on to a complete illusion that was and will never be so I'm not quite sure what to do.
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