Settling for mediocrity

Well I don't know about you but I look around myself and say " HOW THE HELL DID THIS HAPPEN" and I'll tell ya the first word that comes to my mind is mediocrity. The ongoing acceptance of less than the best from everything, especially from ones self. This is a stinging indictment of a life not fully lived and of potential never explored or realized. Very interesting concepts on a personal level but even more interesting on a more broad societal level. It all starts with you and I at the individual level of what we are willing to accept from ourselves. All too often I know I accept mediocrity from myself so how can I expect anything more from anyone else. This is the conundrum I find myself in and I am beginning to understand that it isn't the attainment of the best but the unending, constant pursuit of the best from within that is the key and makes it all worth it. At this point I am still very far from this state but I know that just the awareness of this is a huge step in the right direction.

I'm Tired

Life as it is is just sucking all the energy out of me. It just seems so rough to go day to day. I know this is being a cry baby and "Oh I have it soooo bad!' sounds kind of stupid. I feel run down and not in anyway appreciated. I am going to break some old not useful habits and start some new useful ones. That was a strange sentence. I have gotten myself stuck in this situation and I alone can get myself out. I am processing my options in my head and making a plan of action.

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How did I get here?

So was this a choice I made to be here in the life situation that I find myself in? Well how could it not be. Am I just a leaf blown around by the wind that has no course of it's own? That is sure what I feel like most of the time. I wouldn't have chosen to be in the job I'm in or the financially strapped position I am in. I would have gotten a life inspiring education that I could have developed into a rewarding career. I have great mental capacity and I'm very intelligent but a lack of drive and direction this has just made me a tool of this corrupted world. When I was younger I figured there was plenty of time to live my dreams and rectify any youthful mistakes, WRONG!!! I have been lead around by circumstances instead of creating my own circumstances, this has become a habit or lifestyle, that is really sick you know. Anyway as I get older and following this same worn path is insane, I must make some bold and transforming changes. This whole process starts in my head, that's where I am right now in my head. This is a long hard process I have been at it for quite a while.and still have far to go.

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I am VW dreaming

OK so this site is still working and I might as well use it. For a long time something was wrong with it am I just got tired of fooling with it.

I used to be the go to guy for old VW's I had lots of collectible parts and I was a great Bug mechanic. The problem was I am not a great business man so I could work hard and had all this knowledge but could not seem to parlay it into a reasonable income. I gave up on a passion and let the obstacles stop me instead. Lately I have been wanting to do a VW project or even start building engines again. I miss the garage and the people. It doesn't seem impossible. I have gone back to college for automotive certifications and I have gotten my ASE certification as an official auto tech. I plan to get my California Smog Licence and air cond. Lic. get some up to date experience working as a weekend tech. After that I plan to open my own smog test and air cond. shop. Maybe it's not too late to rekindle a passion.

can I still post

help me out here is it working