Vote Your Hearts

On this election day I will not endorse anyone all I will say is vote what you truly believe in your heart and what you morally know is right. This choice will be different for different people but dig down deep and ask your soul what is right and why am I making this decision. Who we elect is a mirror of what we think about ourselves and what we want to project out to the rest of the world. As evolving humans we are compelled to move past old stereotypes and embrace an inclusive whole world and whole universe view. So lets see which way this country goes and who we think we are. So go vote show who you are.

We love our dogs

Oh yeah they are a lot of work, sometimes trouble, sometimes heartbreak but they always love us. Dogs don't expect too much of us mostly a little to eat a warm place to sleep and a lot of love back from us. Mary and I have always had dogs Missy, JJ, Lady, Jake, Dezzi, Sierra, now Shasta and Sissy. Most have been Labs as are our current two very athletic very smart and very loyal. Yes we love our dogs they bring us closer to God as I have said before there is a reason God and dog share the same three letters. Anyway here are some dog pics. Love Ya All

Hoser - Poser - Stick it in your noser

Somebody doesn't like that I have this blog name. So what's that all about ? Be creative and somewhat original and there are plenty of titles. Thanks anyway for the link and good luck with your marriage.

SeeYa Dave

Not Me

It's been one month since I got fired from my job of 11 years. I was hired on 9/11/01 and fired on 9/11/12 kind of ironic don't you think. As I look back at it the company was setting me up so they could pull this one off. They are trying to get rid of all of the older workers. They put me in a position and set me up to appear to fail. The management at the city and the company both changed to much younger people. The expectations and level of service were raised much higher than they had ever been before. My crew staffing was cut back severely and half of the workers were temps that could not drive the company trucks or use any power tools so what good were they. The company needed to show the city that they had the number of people they were contracted to but half were useless. So I got to be the companies scapegoat so they could blame whatever problems this caused on someone and get rid of an older and more costly employee. This company MCE Corp. is in the business of contracting out municipal and public works projects and undercutting the traditional work force and not offering their employees any security at all. Just needed to get a little of this off my shoulders it's hard to talk to my wife too much about it I don't want her to feel any more insecure than she must already.

See Ya Dave

Sunny In Seattle

Well we all know it's not "always sunny in Seattle" but it sure was over the past few days that we were there. It is early October and the weather was just gorgeous the whole experience this trip was great almost there was a couple of hotel issues but we got them resolved quickly. Went up for my niece Leigh's wedding and got to see a lot of family and friends that we just never see enough of. I'm back in California in the Bay Area and as I sit hear at the computer I hear rain starting up outside. It hasn't rained here in so long I can't even remember when. I had forgotten how very cool the Seattle area is, Pike Place Market, great coffee (not SB) though they are not bad, museums, close to nature, water all around, the ferries, green green green, trees trees trees. Yeah I like Seattle. We found a little coffee place up on Queen Anne Hill that was exceptional and they said we should walk down a couple of blocks to see the view it was great and a real treat. All the people we came in contact with were very friendly. Yeah I like Seattle when the sun is shining.

See Ya Dave

It's Hot As Hell Out !!!

Damn it's Oct. 2nd and it's over 100 degrees out. OUCH !!! I want to be out on the waverunner. We are getting ready for a wedding trip in a few days.

See Ya Dave

Taking Care of Myself

This transition in my life is opening up my eyes, that I have not been taking care of myself very well for a very long time. This means everything right down to brushing my teeth as often as I should. I realize how this has affected me and the people around me, not only bad breathe haha but a bad and negative attitude. This way that I had been living was not living at all it was some kind of treading water or standing still, stuck and not moving forward at all. I can not be good to other people if I am not good to myself first. "Love thy neighbor as thy self." It says it right there in the Bible! I can't love others properly if I am not loving myself properly.
I want to LIVE the rest of my life not just exist and tolerate an unacceptable way of life. Already I am calming down and doing the little things that are important to feed my body, mind and most of all my soul.

I am taking better physical care of myself eating right, exercising, reading, praying, meditating and so on all the things I have been craving but putting on the back burner because of a relentless work schedule at an unrewarding, unethical job. My skills and my passions will be used on my terms from now on I have the chance to be who I am suppose to be not force myself into bondage. I am excited, relieved and so very happy to have this chance to remake myself or should I say re find myself.

See Ya Dave

So F'n Glad I'm Done With MCE

I always seem to need a push to move on to the next level. I am done with the crap I had to deal with at MCE that company was sucking the life out of me. They made some mistakes in the way they let me go and I am going to use it to my advantage. I will be off work for a while and I need it bad. Just now settling in to how my days will go and it takes some getting used to. I always felt that MCE was immoral and not treating their people right or truly living up to their contracts with the cities. They would squeeze as much out of each worker as possible and short the client in the name of money. I know I will be able to replace the lost income  
without too much trouble but first I need to get some things straightened out. On to the next level, oh yeah I am ready.

See Ya Dave

Older Worker Forced Out

I am about to turn 58 I am not a young guy but I am in great health and have knowledge and experience that is invaluable. Yet I was just let go at my job of 11 years out of the blue. As I look back over the recent past I can see the set up. There is new and younger upper management at my former employer and at our largest municipal contract that I was a foreman over a large portion. When I took over in that role things were not only a mess but out of control and no historical documentation on how it needed to run. The expectations and standards were raised much higher than they had ever been in the past. I know that my work had greatly increased level of service.

This is what's going on in the service sector especially. The older worker costs the companies more and has a sense of morality that is not always shared by the corporate world. The loyalty and years that most older employees put in to a company are not ever returned in kind. So I am not going to lay down and just take it I will do what I need to do to get what I deserve from that company. It is always darkest before the dawn. Day is about to break.

See Ya Dave

Forced Change

So it seems I only write on this site when a problem arises. I was let go at my job of 11 years they used up all they could from me and decided it was time to change. I should have been the one to leave quite a while ago. I have been seriously fed up with the way things had been going at the company for a long long time. It was 11 years to the day 9/11/2001 to 9/11/2012 that I was with that company. I gave them a chunk of my life and got no more than a pay check out of it all. Now the forced change, it seems I always need an extra boot in the ass to make the changes I really want and need to make. This is surely one of those times again. This is probably the best thing to happen in a long time and I am going to take this opportunity to step it up and be who I really am. Convulsions of life the uncertainty and mystery we are all along for the ride.

Puppies Make Life Worth Living

I had forgotten how something as simple as our dear Shasta having puppies could bring me so much joy. The  
day to day moments the little things that make life worth living are happening all around us all the time. For some reason it seems I just don't notice most of it and that is surely unfortunate. Anyway I am going to be aware and live the moments and do my best to not let them slip between my fingers. It's never too late.

Love Ya Dave

The Other Side

So after losing an old friend the question comes up as to what is on the " Other Side"? I guess your perception of this would be directly related to your religion or lack there of. I vacillate between my own interpretation of faith and the dogma delivered to us by others seeking power over us. I identify as Christian and I believe Christ teaching but I have a different way of understanding what I am hearing and reading. I very much believe God and Christ wanted and required each of us to use all the critical thinking skill we were given to wade through all the man made miss information fed to us. It all come back to God and Christ being LOVE and Christ saying the only way to heaven ( collective conscience ) is through him LOVE. The way I see it and understand it is that we are each a part of everything and that God is everything and if God is LOVE the only way for us to connect to God is through LOVE. The first 2 commandment in the Bible, 1) LOVE God with all your heart, 2) LOVE your neighbor as yourself. Need I say more? The Bible as I see it are inspired human words, good words for the most part and much truly prophetic but still human and need to be understood as such and used along with ALL other information and personal revelation to form a personal belief system. Take it for what it's worth.

Love Ya Dave

Lost Friends

Rest in peace Richard Earl Dade. So as I go through life I have had to remove myself for reasons of survival and sanity from situations and groups of people. Unfortunately some very close and very needed and wanted relationships have been lost. I always told myself oh I'll look them up someday we'll get back together for old times sake. Well those times don't happen next thing you know you are reading an obituary. Kicking myself in the ass and crying my eyes out. I loved this guy and he knew it but I didn't make the time or take the effort to stay connected. Now it's too late and I even missed the funeral. There was a time when this guy Rich saved me from despair and gave me family. I can't say too much more cause tears are clouding my vision.

MISS YOU OLD FRIEND

Back At It

OK it's been a long time since I wrote on this blog and I know it may be just futile and unnoticed. Anyway I still have a lot to say and have just been holding it in and hiding from the truth and at the same time isolating myself. At times I get scared of how I seem so disconnectted from everyone and everything it doesn't feel right. I have been through a lot of therapy, read so many self help books, been in groups and I still can't get it right. I some how let relationships just die on the vine and just get more and more distant. Then sometimes especially with my dear wife I actually sabotage our closeness. This is the one that really kills me, Mary is my only close friend and I seem to over and over screw up our marriage. I am also distant from my 2 older sons from a previous realationship that I had at a very young age. So that keeps me from being close to my grandkids. So the snowball gets bigger as it rolls ever faster down that never ending hill. OUCH I hurt and I am not alright with it. So I am back actively working on my character defects and am reaching out of my box to make some dramatic changes. Let's see how it goes, maybe that means journaling and blogging on a regular basis. Also reaching out to make contact with the people I have always cared about but have lost close touch with and right hear at home with Mary I love her dearly and want her to be happy. I know I must learn to be positive, content and happy inside myself before I can be a happy part of her life. Love Ya All

One More Time and One More Year

I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THE SAME!!!!! I AM BORED AND TIRED!!!!!  HELP HELP HELP !!!!!!

Do I Really Want Everyone To Know What I'm Thinking?

A big title for a small question. Am I going to be totally transparent and let it all hang out there, or what?
This is not as easy as it should be and the over riding reality of not hurting others by expressing your base instincts and unfiltered thoughts and feelings can stop you in your tracks. I sometimes feel compelled to just say or do what is right there on top of my head and then I must stop and ask is this kind and productive or mean and destructive. So the filtering begins and the questioning and second guessing and the shutting off for fear of negative repercussions. Ouch, am I really me or a watered down version of what I think people want me to be? It is my unhealthy judgement of myself and all others and situations and everything that gets me in trouble. It is the wrong thought patterns and a snowball effect or worse a run away freight train. It is so true "we are what we think" and allowing uncontrolled thoughts to run and ruin your life is hell here on earth. No need for thought police but a deep need for inner peace.

Love Ya All Dave

Oh Yeah I Get It.

Thank you all oh so very much for the reality check.

New Year - New Mind

Once again another year has past and I feel like I have not advanced as much as I think I should. In the coming year I plan to think differently. I am tired of thinking small and getting small results. The person I am meant to be is still hiding inside. So no more of the cry baby stuff and none of the putting things off or worring too much about what people think of me. I am out to get where I am suppose to be, but I must remember the journey is the reward, enjoy the trip or it's not worth doing. Anyway Happy New Year I love ya all.